Goodbye

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Happy Thursday everyone! I hope you’re having a good day! Don’t worry guys I’m not saying goodbye to you or WordPress, it’s only the title of this post. I’ll be honest with you guys… I’m not having such a great day today. It’s partly my fault for not changing that. I’m glad tomorrow is finally Friday! It’s also the beginning of a three-day weekend for me since Monday is Labor Day. Today I’m in the mood to let out a good cry. Sometimes it feels good to cry after holding it in for so long. What’s funny is that it’s actually cloudy in El Paso today! We don’t get too many of those days here. Things at work aren’t going that smoothly today or to be honest these past few months.

I previously wrote about losing a best friend this year. Today is her birthday. She also moved to another state today. In a way I feel bad I haven’t said good luck or happy birthday to her. She is my Facebook friend but I know we aren’t best friends anymore. It still bothers me to this day even if it’s been almost a year since we last hung out. It may sound mean but I don’t really feel like saying happy birthday or good luck with your move to her on social media or via a text message.

I ran into her some months back. She said we would hang out before she moved and it was all bullshit. I think we both knew it was bullshit. She had time for others but not for me. She says I got mad at her because she went to nursing school. I wasn’t mad at her, in fact it was the opposite. I was happy she was making a good life for herself. I was happy she found a lifelong career instead of staying in sales. I got upset because she acted like she was now better than me. Her attitude and actions towards me completely changed. She wasn’t the same person I socialized with anymore. It’s unfortunate we went in separate directions in life…but in a way not really.

I guess it still hurts because we were so close for years. As much as you want to talk to someone or be their friend, it’s sometimes impossible to continue the friendship. Some friendships or relationships aren’t meant to be repaired. Some people aren’t meant to be in your life forever. I am just letting things happen from now on. I will always have the memories we shared in my mind. I remember a lot of them like they happened yesterday, even if most were months or years ago.

I remember this exact day last year celebrating her birthday at her favorite restaurant. I remember a lot of the advice she gave me. She is almost 50 so she has a wealth of experience and wisdom. I’m sure if she were in my shoes she would tell me to move on with my life and chase new beginnings. This is exactly what I plan on doing in terms of finding new friends and  a new career. I’m glad to have found all of you here and to those who are still in my life today. I’m saying goodbye to her here. I’m closing the ‘book’ on our friendship. I’m putting the ‘book’ away on the ‘shelf’ for another happy or rainy day. I have to be thankful for the memories we have and that is what I will do. I will carry on and continue being me. I promise not to change for anything or anyone. Until next time everyone.

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18 thoughts on “Goodbye

  1. Hey, you’re welcome. Glad things worked out well for you. I’ll never understand women who let a man come between her and her friends. I also suspect that my former friend’s husband didn’t like me but not my problem.

    Enjoy your weekend 🙂

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  2. Amaya, I totally understand your situation. I have a few friends and even that seems to be dwindling because I have come to the point of being tired of finding that people don’t see friendship the way I do. Your friend has changed and is upset over what seems a trivial issue. Time to move on and find friends who will stand the test of time. Good luck. Finding true and loyal friends is not easy and I can attest to that.

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  3. Hi Jamie! Thank you for your comment. I’m sorry to hear it’s also happening to you too. Wow 20 years is a really long time to be friends with someone. I wasn’t friends with her that long, only about five years. It felt like it was a longer time but come to think of it, it really wasn’t. Big hugs to you as well 🙂

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  4. Hi ! We are going through the same thing right now. My best friend of 20 years is hitting the big time in her singing career and now has a new hollywood posse that surrounds her. I’m really heartbroken and beat up about it but I realized something: I really only want people in my life that really want me in their life. You’re right, some people are not meant to be in our lives forever. If we keep the same toxic relationships in our lives we won’t have room for better people to come in. I haven’t officially said “goodbye” to my friend. I feel that at this time our paths are going in different directions. If some day they cross again, that would be great but if they do not at least we still have great memories that helped us become who we are today. Big hugs to you!

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  5. Thank you for your comment, Prosperity and Calamities 🙂 It doesn’t happen to me all of the time. It upset me that she said it because she almost always kept her word.

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  6. I understand you also because I had to let go of a friendship (or actually of the attachment to a friendship) last year. I did a post about that too. Thank you for your lovely words. I am happy you like what I share 😀

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  7. Hi Erika! I always enjoy your positive and encouraging words and posts. Thank you for sharing your post. I’m going to read it in a few minutes. Thank you for being such a breath of fresh air here too! I enjoy reading your blog so much :).

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  8. Hi thank you for reading this post and your comment. I forgot to add she changed when her husband came into the picture too. He didn’t like me so that was another issue that came up. But whatever it’s said and done. I’m glad you got to meet other friends. I spend a lot of time with my family and other friends. I’m also grateful for meeting others here! Thanks again for your kind words 🙂

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  9. Hi. I read your post and could really relate to it. I had a ‘best friend’ who changed when she met the man who later became her husband, and we grew apart further when she had her kids. In fact she changed so much, it was almost as though she was a completely different person. Looking back, perhaps I never really knew her at all and even though I still harbour some anger towards her, I’m glad that I’ve moved on and have genuine friendships with fantastic people – I wish the same for you too.

    So don’t be sad. Value the good people in your life be glad you have them.

    And furthermore, I’m incredibly jealous that you have a three-day weekend! 😉 xx

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  10. It is hard to let go of something that meant so much to you once and carries lots of good memories too. Actually the good memories make it so hard to accept that things changed. But why do we meet people here? In order to teach each other something. When the mission is fulfilled we part again. And sometimes the lesson even lies in the letting go. I had a tough time until I finally was ready to let go. I got the idea to take something visibel and make kind of a personal ceremony of it. I did a post post about this all and many did it too and it helped them. Perhaps it helps you too: https://erikakind.wordpress.com/2015/07/16/my-symbol-of-letting-go/#comment-14501

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