Moving On…

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Hi everyone! I didn’t know if I should blog about it or not but I decided to after all. I’ve been pretty busy this weekend because I’m moving into my own place. Before I can move in completely, I still have some last minute things I need to take care of. I probably won’t move in completely until next weekend. If someone would’ve told me this year would end up the way it has so far, I wouldn’t believe it. I had hopes and dreams of being married this year. I thought me and him were building a life together but I guess not. It’s been a month since we last spoke. I moved out on January 24 so it’s almost been two months now. Even though my son will be with me, I haven’t been on my own since I was 21. At first I lived in an apartment with roommates in college. I then lived alone for about two years afterwards. I’m excited and nervous at the same time. I think it will be a good time to get to know myself again. Regardless, I’m going to make the best of it.

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I realize I can’t force anyone to stay in my life, especially when they don’t want to be there. I know I wasn’t the perfect girlfriend but I can’t live and dwell in the past anymore. I have to continue moving forward with my life. I know good things are headed my way, whether I meet someone else or not. I’ll always have myself and that’s all that matters. I’m still hurt about the whole situation but I’m currently living in the present. I’ve been dating for a long time so I was ready to settle down for good. To be honest, I don’t think I can give it my all in a relationship anymore, especially right now. It hurts when you put in so much effort into a relationship and it doesn’t end up the way you wanted. The thing is, you can’t control anyone else’s life or feelings but your own. You can only cherish the people who want to stay in your life and forget the rest. I still don’t know what the future holds for me. I’m learning to go with the flow everyday instead of worrying and overthinking things like usual. A day at a time…a day at a time.

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26 comments

  1. Reblogged this on Kate McClelland and commented:
    well done for moving on. new place new people, new start. scary but in a good way. Once the excitement and newness has worn off, you’ll be able to see and think clearer. Remember how resourceful, confident and self reliant you were when you lived on your own previously. It’ll come back to you.
    Good luck with the move.

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  2. Oh, I am so sad for you. I felt so hurt when my fiance and I split many years ago – he moved on and I had behaved badly. At one point my heart felt broken during my marriage but it recovered. All you can do is go through the motions until it hurts less or you meet someone else who makes you happy. Hugs from the south, K x

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  3. ((( double hugs))) Sometimes we have to experience hurt so that we can appreciate happiness on our own terms and it sounds like despite this hurdle, you are very grounded. Sending lots of good vibes your way! πŸ™‚ xo

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  4. (((Hugs))) I love your attitude! I am sorry you are hurting. It’s only natural that you would be in a situation like this. However your expression here, has me excited for you! πŸ™‚ Here’s to positive changes! Cheers! πŸ™‚ xo

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  5. I understand what you are going through, I have been down this road of moving on my own, living on my own. In was initially scary but as time went on, it helped me learn my strengths and weaknesses and made be stronger and better. This is never easy but in time you will enjoy your time and having your own space. Love will find you when it’s the right time. Stay strong and good luck.

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